Thank you to everyone for your well wishes and prayers. My wife and I really appreciate it. If any of you have babies, I highly suggest reading about Infant Botulism. I never knew how easy it is for a baby to catch. While I was at the hospital in Pediatrics ICU, there was a father there in the room next to ours. His son had a heart condition. He was 2 months old. His son died. I still cry every time I think about it. We both went to the funeral, my wife and I, and needless to say it was very sad. This made our son's condition even scarier for us, since at that time, my son's condition was still delicate. I took a 2 month FMLA (family medical leave of absence) but that is not paid so couldn't afford to take more then that. My wife is now unemployed. So we're surviving on my check alone. It could continue to be that way for a year or more. We were given food stamps but denied cash assistance. This makes for very difficult circumstances. Recently I also had a good friend " commit suicide". i put that in quotations because I don't believe he did. I believe he was murdered. This was supposed to be a good year. I was recently awarded my divorce so I can now marry my fiance of 5 years. In November I get my license to drive back after 10 years. and ofcourse there was my Disney vacation. but it seems like everything went downhill. idk. All I can say is God grant me the strength.