I hope everyone is having a wonderful afternoon! I haven’t been in the lounge for about a year and I have really missed it! I suffer from severe social anxiety, but it is something I’m working on. As part of that, I decided to officially introduce myself and hopefully get to know my fellow MWers better! I’m Ash and I recently moved to Seattle from Utah. I have wanted to be a Jungle Cruise Skipper since I was 4 years old, and I’m still trying to work this into my future plans. I’ve been married to my best friend for 8 years. My husband and I used to have annual passes, but they expired about a year ago. I absolutely love MouseWait and all of the live photos from Disneyland.
I’m coming up on my 2-year MW Anniversary this week, and I just wanted to share a little of my MouseWait story (warning, this is absolutely, ridiculously long):
When I found out I was expecting. I was thrilled, especially since my doctors had previously told me that getting pregnant would be difficult. My first doctor’s appointment was very devastating, I found out I had had a missed miscarriage. The next 4 months were a whirlwind of blood draws, pregnancy tests, and tears and I was having a very hard time. During this time, my husband decided that I needed a break and we should take a trip to Disneyland.
We had always thoroughly enjoyed our trips and it seemed just the thing to help me get out of my funk. I downloaded the MouseWait app before our trip so we could have the wait times available. The vacation was great, we even upgraded to annual passes (probably the best decision we could have made). I was able to forget my problems for a while while we were there, but that made coming home so much harder.
I remember sobbing in the car on our way home when I realized that the good feelings couldn’t stay and I had to face reality and go back to work and more doctors the next day. I opened up the MouseWait app to distract myself and started looking around and realized there was more to the app than just wait times. I found the lounge and I was so excited!
I couldn’t believe it, that there were so many people out there who loved Disneyland so much that they were talking to complete strangers about it. I spent a good 10 hours straight on the drive home reading every post I could and trying to learn more about this group of people. I started spending more and more time on the app. It was a distraction that I desperately needed. The live pictures were a godsend, every time I felt myself about to break down, I would take a few minutes and see the joy of those in the parks and I couldn’t help but feel a little bit better.
My hormone levels finally regulated and I became pregnant again very quickly. We were so scared about this pregnancy. I had a major panic attack the morning we went to my first doctor’s appointment. I was so convinced that we were going to have a repeat of the last time, but there on the screen was a little jellybean. I was in absolute shock, I had fully convinced myself that there was nothing there and I couldn’t believe that there was actually a baby. My husband and I had already scheduled a return trip to Disneyland for a few weeks later, so we decided that it would be a celebratory trip!
4 weeks later I went back for another ultrasound (2 days before we were scheduled to leave on our trip). I was so excited to see our baby again now that it had gotten bigger, but I couldn’t have been more wrong. I saw the exact same jellybean that we had seen a month before. There was no heartbeat. Based on the baby’s size, she guessed that it had died the day after my last ultrasound.
I couldn’t handle all of the different thoughts and feelings I was experiencing. My body didn’t seem to realize that the baby’s heart was no longer beating, the pregnancy had continued progressing right on track. This, plus a risk of sepsis, meant that I had to have surgery. So on the day I should have been walking into the happiest place on earth, I was instead wheeled into an operating room. I really don’t like to dwell on the next few months. I was an absolute mess!
My husband is such a blessing and support to me, looking back, I can’t believe everything he did for me during my zombie phase. During this time, we would drive to Disneyland every few weeks. I was able to open up and enjoy myself while at the parks, but on the ride home the anxiety would start and I would be back in the same dark place as before.
Disneyland had become my only happy place, and MouseWait became my only lifeline. While my social anxiety made it difficult to participate in the lounge, it was my only exposure to the outside world for weeks at a time. Being able to experience the happiness vicariously through other people’s posts kept me going. Reading about other people’s lives kept me distracted enough to forget myself for a while. And shamelessly, troll hunts even made me smile from time to time. I can’t even imagine what it would have been like if I hadn’t had MouseWait during this horrible time.
I’m glad to say that this story has a very happy ending. After years of heartache and tears, I gave birth to my baby boy on November 1, 2012. He is the happiest, sweetest, and best-looking baby in existence and we are so grateful to have him in our lives.
I know that there are others in this community going through difficult times that may or may not be similar to mine. If anyone needs to talk or a shoulder to cry on, I would love to help however I can! What this community does is priceless. I would like to thank everyone for the quality content they post and let them know that they are making a difference in so many lives! I’m sure there are many others out there like me that are too shy to comment, but they are SO grateful for what everyone contributes!
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